Sept 12 Humility and Pride

Dear Family and Friends,


We found 5 new investigators, and now we just have to help the ones we do have progress and come to church. We currently have about 20 investigators and it is going to require a lot of mind space to think and pray about all of them. (Another reason I didn't want to teach students with mild/moderate disabilities--I would have had a case load of 30-80 students!) I really hope I don't end up being a relief society president. But I am grateful for all the opportunities God has given me to serve. And if that or something similar becomes the case then I will deal with that bridge when I come to it.

I was thinking about humility and pride and the results of those two this morning. Every time I see a weakness it's like there is a fork in the road. I can turn left and be prideful and the weakness won't get fixed or I can turn right and be humble, ask for God's help and work through that weakness and get it fixed. It sucks to stare your weaknesses in the face but as someone once said "It's better to face fear once, than to always live in its shadow." (I got that from some Ensign article. We've got stacks of them in our apartment and it satisfies my desire to read.)

I think when I get home I am going to read lots of different things and read all the time. I love to read. 1 hour of personal study is not enough I want to read all the time :) I guess it was a good thing I was an English minor :)

It's true that we should bear testimony of the joy of living the gospel instead of just the knowledge. I try to bear testimony of both. I have seen so many less-active members who have a perfect knowledge of the gospel, but it's the joy in living it that they don't have. It's not having a deep knowledge of the principles of the gospel and the details of how or why things happen, but the person that we become by living it that makes the difference. Hence the primary song "I'm a Child of God" doesn't end with "teach me all that I must know" but "teach me all that I must do" (to live with Him again).

I know that if we let us living the gospel will change us into who we want to be and who Heavenly Father wants us to be.

Love,

Sister Lila Jenson